I know I look soooooo good!

I always knew I had African American ancestors, I just was never able to prove it! Now I can. Thanks to the one and only Stephanie Johnson.

Elder (G-Baby) Smith

Garrett Smith one of my best friend's on his mission in Pittsburg Pennsylvania has hit his 1 year mark and is burning his white missionary t-shirt for the initiation process for the second year, atta boy son. Looks like we wont be seeing eachother for a total of about 3-4 years because of my surgeries, all I know is that it's going to be a sick reunion. Garrett, if you didn't know(which you probably didn't) has taught me alot he helped me come out of my shell and to never ever accept boredom as an option.

2 hip surgeries.in 2 months. Post-op 1st surgery 5 weeks

Life seems like it stands still, I wake up and since I cant walk too well I dont want to do anything that will bother my legs so I usually just stay in my bed until I have to go to my one a day class. What I'm learning is when there is alot of physical pain in your life everything you do reflects that pain. Unfortunately this is so true and I hate it, this is not what I want to be for the rest of my life, some charity case that has a bunch of problems. I want to be the one helping others not the one being helped and I want to be strong in order to help others. There are so many aspects of life that have kind of jumped out and kicked me in the face that are so important that I have realized throughout this trial. The Lord is putting me through a crash course of life 101, it seems I haven't learned my lesson yet either or mabe I have and now its just an endure to the end type of thing?

I know and have learned through my trials that every little blessing is so important, and when we underestimate the power that out Heavenly Father has in our lives, then we miss out on those sometimes big but most imporantly the little blessings that God has in store for us, then that is when life seems so unbearable.

My leg feels like it had peeked already and hasn't really gotten better in the last week. There are so many variables to think about while recovering from a surgery, your mind plays games with you and you think your not going to recover correctly. This is some seriously business, these surgeries will play a huge role determining the outcome of the rest of my athletic, care-free, normal life that I once had...QUE? It is time to wake up and spell the pancakes, and realize that the purpose in life is not to just live a happy life, but to pass on tht happiness to as many people as possible.

Elder Morgan terrin it up!

Elder Morgan, aka one of my roomate up at college in 2006 is tearin it up over in Argentina. This kid is a stud. He's on the far right.

The first letter I got from E Morgan was one of not wanting to be there and way mad about not knowing the Language as well as he should. But now the kid is tearin it up and workin really hard so this is a shout out to him and all my homies out on missions.

Post-op 4 weeks

It has been 4 weeks since my operation and I am walking pretty good, really slow but good. The past 4 weeks have been rough and the pain makes school 10 times worse. It is really funny, the surgeon who did my surgery said I would be good after 3 months and then after the surgery he said about 6-24 months! haha jeeze that is kind of a big jump there. It seems like I will be here alot longer than I had expected unfortunately.

Lately I have had a bunch of time to think, mostly resulting from the lack of sleep I get every single night. I go through a stream of thinking sometimes negative and sometimes positive but mstly ballanced. At times I get really mad about what has happend in my life, how I have been held back from doing what I want to do. I get mad about how I will be going on a mission so late and how I may be getting behind in school, I don't know why but theese thoughts are just there. But then when I start thinking about getting better, and the Gospel I am automatically comforted. The simple things in life are made so complicated, are distorted in so many ways and Satan wants us to feel down in the dumps, he wants us to give up to back down and to raise the white flag. He tries so hard to make life seem so easy, and he does not care about you. Times that are hard are opportunities to rise up, opportunities that we need in order to grow spiritually, mentally and physically. Our lives are not based on how we act in times of comfort and convenience but how we react in times of challenge and controversy. It is amazing to me how many people just give up, they throw away their foundations to live an easy life which leads them no where. Thank you to those who rise up to the toughest challenges in life and who make the lives of others better, I have much to learn from you.